Deceit Never Ends: Part 1


Closed doors, air flies in through the ventilation,
Persisting still is the tension,
I look at Seran and she looks away,
This time not even knees on the floor, or tears on my face will make her stay
So what can?
Hundreds and thousands of thoughts play in my brain,
But perhaps I should take you back to the beginning,
Back to the first place, and the same exact evening…
 
Sitting on the edge of my bed staring into her eyes,
Wanting to convince her to sleep with me but my voice dies,
This should be easy,
But why do I feel dizzy?
I have done this before,
She’s not the first one to tell me “No”,
So I decide that all form of love I should reveal,
But truth conceal,
She discerns my conflict and says, “Tonight can be special, it’s all up to you”
In my mind I’m thinking “Well, this is new”
And she says “you only have to promise me one thing”
She obviously doesn’t know men because in that moment I can promise anything.
“Never cheat on me, ever”
I hold her hand and say “not me baby, I’d never”
She smiles and then embraces me,
I smile too because I didn’t mean those words obviously
Naivety prevails and the night is enveloped in pleasure,
She was smarter even though I thought I was clever,
I mean there is no turning away from love,
She knew what she was giving; I didn’t know I was getting what I wasn’t ready to have,
That night passed, time moved but things remained,
The friendship grew but the relationship strained,
I carried what I got with me, like a miniature purse I held it under my arms,
Barely three weeks later and I was more than admiring other women’s bums,
The first time she packed her things and my knees went straight to the floor,
Then the tears came while I begged her not to go,
It worked and she stayed,
Lately I think that was her mistake, how could she accept being played?
Because this became a routine, a trend,
First it was her boss, her neighbour, her classmate, and then her friend
She looked down at me on my knees,
“Don’t leave me Seran please…”
“But Patrick you promised me, I gave you my heart”
“I’m sorry baby let’s make a new start”
I told her and we were back on, the same path,
Sneaky me had once again evaded her wrath,
Became the man magazines, songs, movies, and society warned her about,
I continued my manoeuvres thinking I wouldn’t be found out,
Thinking I would always be a step ahead of her,
But like every prick, every fool, I took it too far,
And tonight she found me and her sister in bed,
Her eyes watered, her mind spun, and her heart bled…
 
So now behind closed doors, air flies in through the ventilation,
Persisting still is the tension,
I look at her and she looks away,
This time not even knees on the floor, or tears on my face will make her stay
I don’t know what can?
Hundreds and thousands of thoughts play in my brain,
Unless I come up with something quick,
It’s obvious falling to my knees and crying has stopped doing the trick,
I’m going to lose her, that much is clear,
And then like a microwave sound when the roast is ready *Clung* I have a new idea..
 
(To Be Continued)
 
(My Intellect is Loud And Noisy-MILAN)
 
 
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One thought on “Deceit Never Ends: Part 1

  1. This serial poem stems from an earlier poem “Seran” from my collection “love, birds, and butterflies”. It appears in my other collection of ten stories titled “The mirrors in the boxes”. It expresses the thoughts and feelings of Patrick, a cheating boyfriend who tries his best to convince his girlfriend Seran to take him back. What he used to rely on to make her stay apparently this day isnt working, so he develops another plan.

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